Energy envelops me; Buzzing, pulsating around me, seeping into my ears. Thunder of footsteps reverberates through the house. Voices echoing; My heart... lub-DUB, lub-DUB, lub-DUB . Inhale, exhale, my breath is in my chest and ears. Creaking of furniture, crinkling of wrappers, clinking of glass or ceramics. Can't think - everything echos (echos...echos...echos...). Woosh, swish,… Continue reading Strenuous Moments
So Maybe... if I was told that consent was mandatory... I would have known it wasn't my fault. if uncomfortable conversations had taken place... I would have tried to tell you again when you didn't listen to me or what I was telling you through my tears the first time... if I hadn't been a… Continue reading So maybe…
I fear spiders. Yes, it is irrational and I recognize that. It is something that has plagued me for as long as I can remember. This has caused me to jump, squeal and cry out on many occasions. Not that I intend on being a free source of entertainment for those around me, it has… Continue reading Arachnophobia
I hold myself to high standards. Always have. Many times they are unrealistic standards, especially after getting sick. Frequently I have forgotten to adjust my expectations (mostly out of habit). I forget that things are different now. This is how I get into trouble. Other times I think it is my personality. No matter how… Continue reading Don’t try. Do.
I can't stand it when I make simple stupid mistakes. Like this morning for instance. I was so proud of myself for getting us out the door on time (we had a two hour drive to see my sister and get our hair done), but then...I was happy, singing and all of a sudden driving… Continue reading Mistakes
It is always the same, but asked in different ways. ~ How are you? ~ How's it going? ~ How do you do? ~ How's your day? ~ Why do people ask questions like this? The majority of the time they don't care or want an honest answer. Most people are just asking to be… Continue reading That damn question.
I decided to take quite a few weeks off from blogging during the holiday season. It was one thing that I could take off my To Do List guilt free even though it is one of the few things I do for myself. I did miss writing and getting my thoughts 'down on paper' per… Continue reading It’s been a while…(long read)
I'm fine, normal even. If I didn't tell you, you would never know.