Amputation · Anxiety · Complaints · Self

Anticipation Kills

Do you ever make a decision that you 100% know in your hear is the right choice? Even though this is the case do you have severe anxiety about how your loved ones will react? Stress over managing their emotions and anxieties or fielding their questions which is inevitably defending your choice. Maybe you go through scenarios and conversations in your head; trying to play out how it will go? This happens to me and is incredibly stressful. Sometimes debilitating-ly so. It’s funny because most of the time, the outcome, in reality is no where near as bad as anticipated. Yet it held a crippling fear over me. No matter how many times things work out or are ‘okay’ the uneasy trepidation is always looming in the shadows, ready to pounce on any doubt I may have. Maybe someday I will outgrow this ridiculous dance.