Tuesday night something incredible happened.
Something that may not seem like much to most people.
I went shopping. Shoe Shopping.
Yes, I get that sounds silly, BUT 1 year and 9 months ago I was paralyzed from the waist down.
I am now able to walk – albeit differently since I have limited to no feeling below my waist and minimal control over my left ankle and toes.
However, I have been stuck in sneakers to ensure my balance and that they do not fall off my feet.
About 6 months ago I was able to wear 2 pairs of my flats without walking out of them or tripping. I did have to uncurl my toes by sliding my fingers under my foot before putting my heel in the shoe, but it was progress.
So Tuesday evening, I not only had enough energy to walk around DSW, but the desire to try to slip my foot into a flat.
By this I mean that I WANTED to try and wedge my foot into shoes while adjusting my toes – huffing – puffing – straining – sweating – in public. A place where everyone sees a woman who looks ‘normal’ but is clearly struggling for no apparent reason.
It was liberating and exciting. I was FINALLY able to not care (much) what people saw me struggle (thankfully not many since it was closer to 7 pm) and what they were thinking.
I found an adorable pair of flats.
I FELT normal. (yes family, I know I am was never ‘normal’ no need to remind me)
It felt so good. It is crazy how something so simple and make you feel so incredible.
I did it.